Wednesday, October 14, 2009
hmm
When I first got into a relationship with my current girlfriend, I felt like I was holding back. I didn't want to put myself out there emotionally. Well it feels like I've finally let that go and now I feel extremely vulnerable and it's going to take some getting used to.
Monday, October 12, 2009
Same-sex situation
At work today I was discussing California's recently passed Prop 8, banning Same-Sex marriage. As surprised as I was that California, one of the most liberal states in the union, shot down a proposition like this, I was extremely pissed off that people were so uncomfortable with this.
I believe the primary reason why people are unable to step even a little bit outside their box is because of their religious beliefs. I'm not saying there's anything wrong with being religious, I'm just saying it's stupid, that's all.
Anyways, as my friend and I got into this little debate, it became more and more clear that I was right, he was basing his entire argument on God's condemnation of homosexuality. I had him squirming a little when I pulled out the Separation of Church and State card but then he made some claim about how Churches would be forced to marry same-sex couples which is of course ridiculous...like...really??
I don't know why, but I get extremely worked up about this and it just really gets to me.
On a side note, it's definitely Fall, and the weather is awesome.
Obama is an official Peacekeeper even if slightly undeserving, which is fine by me.
Cheers.
Friday, September 25, 2009
What I'm not proud of.
I usually enjoy partaking in one form or another of the seven cardinal sins but envy is one I don't particularly care but unfortunately I seem to be disposed to spending time with envy's cousin, jealousy.
Whenever it comes to my girlfriends, I can be really jealous if another guy is spending time with my girlfriend when I'm not around, even if it does seem perfectly innocent.
I have no idea why I have this trait but I most definitely dislike it. I can't seem to help but be possessive of my girlfriends. I wish I knew why I am.
I've thought of several reasons why I could be...
1. I like what I have and the idea of not having it brings me displeasure.
2. I don't want other people to enjoy what I enjoy in that context. (Selfish, I know.)
3. I'm just an inherently bad person.
Now the last one is probably not true because I really don't think anyone is inherently bad, but I need to through it in there because a list of two is hardly a list at all.
Either way, I hope this trait of mine tames itself and tones down in the future, because it's something I'm not proud of at all.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Making copies
The worst part about the situation is not that I lose important copies of stuff, it's that the same day (after looking all over the place for a week) I print off a new copy, I find my original copy lying around somewhere.
Who the hell needs to copies of a syllabus for Comm 101? No one. I wasted 5 minutes of my life downloading and printing off 10 pages.
I don't why it's so frustrating, but it is.
On a lighter note, my Comm 101 class has been assigned an Oral Reading and the mass amount of possible readings I could do makes my mouth water. I'm probably going to read some of Albert Camus' earlier work if I can find something with some decent amount of relevance to the majority of the class which shouldn't prove to be too difficult.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Pipe Smoking and Online Book Buying
I could not believe it. But anyways, I suppose that little story was just to tell you to never, ever shop on Barnes and Noble online, unless you wish to unnecessarily burn through all your money holus-bolus.
I've been ever-increasingly enjoying my pipe. I recently picked up several new tobaccos from a nearby shop and tried some new ones. I've learned that I'm going to have to shop online for tobaccos due to the pathetic selection and variety available to me where I live (the conservative arm pit of southern California). I've also made a couple pipe videos on youtube partially due to the gentle coercion from a fellow whom I talked to from that community. So far it's an enjoyable thing, but there's nothing like writing a blog. It feels more satisfying than making a video, not to mention the effort involved in making a video sometimes defeats the point I think. We shall see how that goes. Cheers.
Friday, August 28, 2009
Starbucks and RSXs
At the moment I am gladly outside the Antelope Valley where I've lived for over fiftenn years. Even though Northridge is only a canyon run and a freeway skip away, it nonetheless provides the breath of fresh air that comes with a period of fresh faces and places.
I suppose one of the interesting things about California, particularly Southern California is that youre never really outside your comfort zone, assuming youre comfortable with Southern California culture. Even though this town may be different and fresh compared to the last town, there is still a Starbucks around the corner and still a slammed RSX down the street (crazy asians). So you truly get the best of both worlds.
Ok, I think I'm done rambling now, it's easier to drink my Starbucks coffee if I'm not typing.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Fall 2009 First Impressions.
Geology: Professor is out to change the world but there are worse things.
Sociology: I don't even know what to think.
Speech: I'm just happy I was able to crash this class, by the skin of my teeth that is.
This semester has a good feeling to it. It really feels like a fresh start.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Ressurecting GSRs and pre-class nerves
While this is something in the back of my mind, the beginning of my next semester and my continuation of my job at Lockheed are in the forefront of my thoughts. I'm excited for tomorrow. Cheers.
Friday, August 21, 2009
Pipe and thoughts.
Maybe it could be from my mom because she seems to have a similar problem, but unfortunately when I think about upcoming events or due dates or other important things I have to take care of, I get this extremely uncomfortable anxiety. I have absolutely no idea why, but the pipe seems to help with that.
On the school front, things are looking up. Then again, it's easy for things to look up when coming from such a low spot. I start fall classes in two days, which I'm not particularly looking forward to, but it remains to be something I must do. Every semester I reserve my thoughts to making that semester a perfect semester where I do every little thing I'm supposed to do, and based on my past experiences of failure with that particular mindset, I think I'm going to avoid worrying about it and just take it in stride.
On the women side of life, everything's going smoothly. I'm still thoroughly enjoying my lovely girlfriend, something I haven't had in quite some time.
I hope I find more time for my pipe and this blog, which could either become more or less likely with the on-set of fall classes. I suppose we'll see. Cheers.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Saturday, August 1, 2009
ugh
A friend I've had for a few years slipped and fell and did some significant damage to his head. I heard the news and went to visit him in the hospital.
The best way to describe my experience there is...saddening. This friend is one of those people who are just full of life. They take every opportunity to seize the day
and enjoy the night. He taught me how to drive the canyons, now one of my favorite things to do.
Now he's responsive but not quite there %100. It's painful to see. All I can do is hope with every fiber in my being that he'll make a full recovery.
Friday, July 31, 2009
Hookah, Cars, and Conversation.
Building off of a conversation about college, he made a more generalized statement about how the past and the future are totally insignificant when it comes to the things that really matter, for several reasons. The past should obviously be kept in mind somewhat as to learn from one's mistakes but it must not control your thoughts. The future will work itself out if you focus on how you live your life in the presence.
The part that really hit home for me was the part about the past. He unknowingly brought all my past relationships and the regrets and emotions tied to those relationships. He mentioned something about how it's not the events or situations in the past that create the problems, it's the emotion that's tied to those events, and how one relates to those events. I realized that it had taken my something like two years to get over one of my ex-girlfriends all because of my lack of understanding of this concept. My regrets about my academic decisions and lack thereof has also been influencing my negatively. It's all a process. Life is graded on a curve so there's really nothing to worry about but the present, and life's easy to handle moments at a time.
In essence, this stranger opened a lot of doors for me, and shut a lot of doors that have been been open far too long. So thanks Aaron, you helped me more than you know with a few sentences. It's been a long day, I'm going to bed. Cheers.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
ramblings and pipes
On a non-emo note, I've been enjoying my tobacco pipe from Dean for my birthday. The first time I tried it, I was less than impressed but I'm glad I gave it another shot. Talk about a relaxing activity. Enjoying a pipe is something I can see becoming a more regular occurrence. I'm also in need of a new interesting book to read. My recent choices have been failing me. A trip to the store is in order. Wish me luck. Cheers.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
3eB
The first time I had the privilege of seeing them I was hoping for them to play my favorite song, I Want You, and alas they did not.
When I saw them at the beautiful Ventura Theatre, they played I Want You in an acoustic set. It was ecstasy. Here's another song they played from that very same
show. Cheers.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Girlfriend.
On the school front, I'm taking a summer class, which sucks, but at least I'm getting some work out of the way.
My car is running beautifully, and looking good.
This blog was in desperate need of an update.
Cheers.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Cody: Long over-due Update
Updates on my life:
1.Quit McDonalds in favor of detailing cars (Fuck YEAH!)
2.Schools almost done (this semester = epic phailure)
3.My car dropped about 2.5 inches in height :)
4.I've decided to change my major from English to Computers.
5.I got cock-blocked by God.
I want to extrapolate on that last one there ^^
There's this absolutely gorgeous girl who works at my bank and every time I go in there and see her, massive flirting and joking around ensues. I'd been working up the courage to ask her out for a few weeks (yes, she's just that hot) and finally on Thursday last week I did. Here's how the conversation pretty much went:
Me: Last time you helped me, my cash came out in all one-dollar bills.
Her: (Flirty) Oh, Did I do that? (twirling hair in finger)
Me: Yeah, not cool.
Her: Were you mad at me?
Me: I'm not gonna lie, a little bit haha
Her: (FLIRTY) Will you forgive me?
Me: I'll forgive you if you let me buy you a cup of coffee...
Her: I can't
Me: Why not?
Her: I'll get in trouble with my school...
Me: Where do you go, Nazi Germany? lol
Her: I'm not allowed to be off-campus with a guy, I go to West Coast Baptist College.
Me: Oh damn. See ya later then.
The moment those words rolled off her tongue, my heart just dropped. West Coast Baptist College is a Bible College attached to one of the biggest and richest Baptist Churches in California. It's about a sneeze and a fart away from a cult.
Women should wear ankle-length dresses and walk behind their men, not next to them - that sort of thing. Psychos. So in essence, God himself extended his mighty invisible hand to make my actions and temporary courage completely and utterly futile. Stupid God, always messing things up.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
A much needed update
As for the romantic life, I'm finding that there's not as much to it as I once thought. There are few things a determined individual can actively accomplish in this area of one's life. It's seemingly much more effective to let whatever sort of fate exists to just take it's course.
Where friend's are concerned, I'm apparently good at driving them away, save a few. Either this is the case, or I need to come up with a more effective method of determining the character of a person as soon as possible.
Where reading is concerned, "Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance" is a wonderful read. I'm almost done with it and I'm surprised I'm getting as much out of it as I am.
I've been wallowing in a little too much philosophical struggle recently and I think it would be better for my mental and physical health for me relax a little more. I think way too much about things that I don't think I can change. I realize this sounds very ethereal and you may not really care. But what if I CAN change these things? Then it becomes relevant.
I'll try to shoot another post up here soon, and overall in a more regular manner.
Cheers.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
C'eSt La Vie
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Wanton eyes
through which I stare
breaks down trees
to make them bare;
and blows through me
much like your eyes,
the playful gods
to my wanton flies.
How can I escape,
how is prey set free?
It proves trying
when merely eyes can capture me.
-Note: "Wanton Flies" is a shakespeare reference, not a chinese food reference lol
Thursday, February 26, 2009
Root canals
Sunday, February 8, 2009
School tomorrow.
Friday, February 6, 2009
Open Forum
There's not much else to say other than I feel that I have made some friends with genuine people whom I would definitely be interested in talking to again. It's strange, but after having such a discussion, I feel full, as if I've just eaten a large meal. It's a good feeling. It's the feeling of good, honest, discussion. Cheers.
It's "you're," NOT "your," for Christ's sake.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Catcher in the Rye
It's strange to me that this book is so famous. I can understand the logic behind it being popular, but I've heard things about this novel's ability to alter lives. I truly didn't get that from this at all.
Overall, it was a fun read and easy to go through. The character development was lively and the pace of the novel made it very readable but there was nothing life-altering that I can find in it. I'll have to devote a day to another read-through when my schedule and patience affords it; maybe I can find more there.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Nag Champa
Thursday, January 29, 2009
W.W.J.D?
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Sars.
Monday, January 19, 2009
just some pagan author
Many people are made to read "The Stranger" by Albert Camus in highschool, as an introduction to existentialist literature. Camus' novel is excellent, no doubt, but it pales in comparison to his earlier ventures into the stylized literary essay. The above excerpt from one of his essays entitled "Summers in Algiers" really captures the essence of his style and energy throughout this essay and many of his essays in general. I picked up his collection of essays from the store and by the time I had read the first page, I hated Camus' novels. Well not really, but stark difference in style and raw power between the two is so tremendous that it doesn't even seem like they were written by the same individual. I guess the who point of this advertisement is to tell you to go get Camus' collected essay, it's called "Lyrical and Critical Essays," by Albert Camus. The old Camus slips you into his writing and the young Camus punches you in the face with it. Cheers.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
some poker and some jesusing.
Friday, January 16, 2009
So sue me
I'm going to get a lot of crap for this, but I have just started reading "The Catcher in the Rye" this morning. I know it's supposed to be a timeless classic and not having read it is like never having heard the Beatles, but whatever, sue me.
So far, it's not really what I was expecting. It definitely keeps you entertained.
I'm not even nearly into it so I have no right to judge, therefore I'm postponing revealing my thoughts on this until I've finished the book.
On a separate note, I've been talking to a girl I met a while ago practically all day and I'm thoroughly enjoying it. There are very few people who can keep me on my toes, two being Coleman and Sage. They know whats going on. This girl definitely has that ability and it intrigues the hell out of me. I really didn't start this paragraph with a clear ending in mind, so I suppose ending here is just as fitting as anywhere else, so, Cheers.
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Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Atheism, the Case Against God
Anyways, if you're after a more academic spin on the question of Atheism that seems to be a popular subject for authors recently, you might want to pick up George Smith's "Atheism." He's a very well-read author with an acute sense of rationality and logic. With great detail and patience he presents the most common arguments for theism available to the general reader. He even delves into some of the more obscure arguments for the existence of god, all of which he slashes down with an increasing appetite for destruction. This is really the only downfall of this book that I noticed was his not-so-unbiased view of Christianity and religious faith in general. He seems to possess a personal vendetta against religious faith. It's likely he is a disenchanted religious person himself. It's a great read for long-time atheist looking for a rational, academic bash on Christianity and theist logic. All in all, a book I enjoyed.
Good News
On a different note, I've been trying to come up with different things to do with this blog seeing as I struggle at times with interesting content to add. I've decided to write mini-reviews of books and stuff that I get into, so if you and I are like-minded, maybe I can lead you in the right direction when it comes to interesting reading material and such. That whole thing should be starting soon, maybe sometime tonight I'll become slightly less unmotivated.